Sunday, December 20, 2009

"Excuse me While I obsess"

There is no way to be truly great in this world. We are all impaled on the crook of conditioning. A fish that is in the water has no choice that he is. genius would have it that we swim in sand.
We are fish and we drown.

~James Dean

When I obsess I obsess...
So it started the other night with "Rebel Without a Cause", then the following night with "Giant" then last night I traveled downtown to a picture show at the Gene Siskel which is currently showing a limited engagement of "East of Eden" (Amazing I know). which was then followed by hours of Internet scavenging for videos, pictures, bios, snippets of his early television career.
I was yet again amazed and disappointed. Amazed at the beauty, the genius, the eyes. Disappointed at the lack of footage or documentation of his early stage and television work, saddened by his early and tragic demise and wondering/wanting just one kiss.
I remember watching his movies as a sexually confused boy who had no idea who or what I was, all I did know was I had seen a god, a man I thought about, the first man I couldn't forget...

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